I can't describe how I feel at the moment. I just want to do somthing to vent everything that's inside me. Too bad I don't have the tools to make myself feel better at the moment.

I can't stand this feeling. I feel like I'm going to go insane.

Why WHY THE FUCK am I like this?

Anyway, Happy 19 months, Jan~

I just turned my computer back on to type this. I'm blind. The keyboard is a big blur, the screen is another blur. Let's see how my typing skills are, yeah? I'll find out tomorrow.

Hope that I can get to sleep. Last night didn't sleep til 3 hours after I got into bed.

BY THE WAY. WHY DO I HAVE TO FIND THINGs OUT THIS WAY? I'M ASKING YOU, GUY WHO'S IN THAILAND. I THOUGHT WE SHARED EVERYTHING. INSTEAD, I FELT LIK E A RETARD., GOING THROUGH EMBARRaSSING WAYS. TO KNOW MORE ABOUT YOU. There's a reason I'm like this, after all. Bingo.