hello there~

It's 1-something am and I'm bored.. kinda used to sleeping at 2am these days, so I don't really want to get ready to sleep until then. Have about 5 tuition homework booklets and two Biology Independent Trial papers in front of me that I've yet to finish. Why the hell am I complaining about boredom when there's work to do?!! I'm so not motivated and extremely lazy.....

At about 1-2pm in the afternoon, I'm always thinking I have so much time until I have to sleep! I have so much time to do work.. but I never do anything by the end of the day. @@ So good at procrastinating, seriously.

Mm.. anyway, it's really strange.. even when I get enough sleep, but I'm always tired. I'd always want to fall asleep while watching TV at about 4-5 in the afternoon. Is it because of low blood pressure? Does is affect people that much?!

Jan is neglecting me at the moment. No msn replies, no sms replies, and I don't know where the cordless phone is.. don't want to go looking for it downstairs (so DARK), so I cannot call, also. Mmm.. he's probably picking up some girl at some dodgy place at the moment. pppfffssss

&@;#*I'm so frustrated! =.= Maybe the result of staying home all day for 2 days in a row now. I should go out tomorrow, force myself to visit tuition to hand in homeworks.. then go shopping.. walk around.. do SOMETHING. And shall be out thursday too, I think. In some ways, I can't wait until November/December; hopefully the direction I'll be heading will be clear by then. I just want to start another section of my life and leave this one behind. Nothing's going to change until then, and if there is a change, it'd be for the worse. WANT TO FORWARD WIND!

Jan's still neglecting me.

LALALAA.. oh my god. I NEED TO CLEAN MY ROOM/COMPUTER DESK. I've been telling myself to do it for over a week, attempted a couple of times.. I have to do it. I can't even sleep in my room anymore, I feel so.. caustraphobic, and the mess makes my mind feel cluttered. So now I sleep on a super comfy sofa in front of TV. Hahahaha.. but it's comfortable!

What else do I need to do. Oh been telling myself to place in an order for clothes online, too. On that note, have to pay Annie back for clothing ordered on Zipia a couple of weeks back. Probably envelope it into her mailbox to her mum or something... after I tell her! Have to do that before holidays end, too.. or during trials.. something..

My contacts are drying up, from staring at the computer screen. I hate it, so annoying.

I wish I were more organised, and I think I've lost my amazing willpower that I used to have. I wish I had that now too. Must get it back, soon.. somehow.

So so so so sleeptime soon, tomorrow (today?) I must:
1. Wake up somewhat early, might prevent strange dreams
2. Place in order for clothing
3. Do chemistry homework
4. GO OUT
5. Clean room/desk/floor!
6. Photocopy and do Biology trial papers

Do-able. So I better do it.

Mm.. hope today will be a better day than yesterday.

Retarded random and messy post. You're probably really bored if you're still reading..

Goodnight then