Wow I've been blogging everyday.. I guess it's because I have noone to talk to.. and nothing to do when not studying... which is quite often.

I'm annoyed at about 100 things about myself at the moment. I was just typing them all out in an attempt to sort out my thoughts out manually, but I was up to about 15 and then I gave up.. while trying to put one of them into words. I guess I wouldn't've typed all of it truthfully anyway, because I'm sure some of things I'm annoyed at would sound too stupid and embarrassing to reveal.

So/Also, I'm getting into this uncontrollable habit again. This stupid OCD I had is coming back to me. It's really crazy. I don't even want to describe what it's like because it'll sound.. REALLY wierd. It's sooo annoying, and my mind can't fight it away. I have to somehow forget about it. I think it started in year 3-4 years ago. It makes my head hurt from thinking, thinking, thinking. I thought I completely got over it, until now.
FUCKING HELLLLLL.

I used to write books and books of useless things before. I read some of it when I (thought) I was over it, and they sounded so...... gah, so retarded. I chucked them all out. (*#&@*&#(*@73

I'm starting to get insomnia, too.

MY HEAD HURTS.

AHHHH! I just want to be happy....

I'LL BE ALRIGHT!

Have to clean my room and computer desk, all these notes/paper/books everywhere.. so hard to sort because some things don't have dates on them. Now I need to blowdry Mimi.

Okay, I'm really screwed up. I hate myself so so so much.