This morning I went to NS foodcourt and didn't do anything.. just talked to Jenny Li & Ada for a while, until they had to leave for rollcall and Jan came (:

&& stayed at the foodcourt a bit, then went to Chatswood. Basically, I spent the next several hours with him ^__^

Should all start attending more classes at school.

SIGH.

^A nice picture I found while browsing forums :D

So I didn't set my alarm and I woke up 10minutes after the last train I could catch to get to school on time left Westmead station. So........ I took my time getting ready and got to school by roll call.

I went to class after lunch...... while Hana, Shelia and Melinda who had sport, didn't go to sport....... I was tempted ): .............. BUT I RESISTED TEMPTATION :D

Tuition after school!

Tomorrow is our school swimming carnival.

Wednesday to Friday is our "motivational" camp at Vision Valley.

SIGHHSSSSSSSS

NORMAL SCHOOL DAY.

edit later.

I tell you that I don't miss him.
It's not because I pity you, it's my true feeling.

Each chord and every note of the melody
The voice singing into my ear;
Singing my life to me

The magic of music

beautiful misery......

Goodmorning! ^___^

(..... -_-;)


*****
There is no growth without change, no change without fear or loss, and no loss without pain..

I'd hate to see the one I love happy with somebody else
but I surely hate it more to see
the one I love unhappy with me...

I could never regret loving you because
even if you didn't love me anymore,
I know that you once did and that is
the most wonderful feeling
because I never thought that I deserved your love

This week passed pretty quickly; I can't believe it's already friday evening.

Quite a few things happened, good & not so good. But overall it was alright.

Today, I had a free 1st period :D then gave myself a free 2nd period too....... *sweatdrop.... I just sat at the seats outside B block, with Daphne, doing some work.. until Wyntane came (:

Then was discussing the different types of economies, testing elements, walking down to 88 with our yellow stairs group (hehe) and watching Pretty Women in class. After school, Shelia, Hana & I went to Kinokuniya and spent money. Then met my mum & went home. I will post very random pictures from my digital camera o_o

This is my folder, my camera case, my bag, Wyntane's Country Road and her back XD
This is cute little Hana (:

This is Shelia (:
This is what my mum took me to buy after school today, I'm going to get FAT:

*****

Met Jono at Westmead station this morning because he was a nigel travelling to uni for his bridging course, LOL! We caught the train together, he bought me dogtags from HK! haha Thankyou! ^__^

Met Yvonne & Mel at NS station, eat & talk. Then went to school for assembly. Class was just normal..

JanJan came to visit me at lunch :D

Then went to the city after school with Hana & Shelia. Shopped but couldn't find what we wanted! Aigu.. then Shelia & I then went to play team-single on DDR, Almerick & friend were our main audience. XD

ALRIGHT. BYEE! SO MUCH WORK AND I'M PROCRASTINATINNNNGG!

*****
I just want to erase the evidence of the past...

My love for you is growing a little more each day. I love you a little bit more than yesterday, and not as much as I will love you tomorrow.. :D

It will fade away...

Making a quick post before I leave for school at 12 to pick up some stuff from teachers & friends.

Alfred's telling me to get the Sony mp2 player. IT'S SO UGLY T_T.
But I can't be bothered shopping for one, and it seems most suited (battery life :D) so whatever. I'll get it in the city today then get another one when I get back to Taiwan. I need music again, or I'll die.

Rah, after going to the city, I have no idea. Don't know what I'll feel like doing. Oh well, I'm gone.
Bye-bye!

*****
Anger now overrides guilt. I think I'm just pushing the guilt to the side. Because I know I have to think this way, for myself to stay alive and for myself to keep promises. I have changed a hell of a fucking lot; I'm actually doing this.

You know why I held a face that was void of emotions the other day. I don't know if you could see I was struggling so much to keep it up.

Today, I stopped the tears in 10 seconds. It took me that long to push the sadness and guilt over a bit. I have to do it every 10 minutes or so. It's painful, I'm manipulating myself. Like what the fuck?

I don't know if this is for the better or worse.

I couldn't find a good diary for school, so I might just use the fat ugly school one.

I also didn't take any pictures that were suitable to be posted on my blog. Sorry! ):

Anyway, asides from that..

1. I stayed home today
2. I have a headache & I have zero appetite. I've just been really really really thirsty. I think I drank a couple of litres of water/pepsi today.
3. Some woman called me today ask me why I'm fucked up, and told me I need help lols

When I’m feeling blue
lost without a clue
sparks between our eyes
nothing can be as true

sing my life for you
paintings that I drew
one plus one makes two
how I wish to caress you

Tell me where we’re heading to
what we do may seem so crude
where’s the "good" in our goodbyes
the time you leave’s the time you break my heart in two

Even though we’re far apart
send my love with all my heart
when you miss me at night
look at the stars shining bright

for the time you pulled me through
all the things I do for you
running tears from my eyes
thinking how will I survive next goodbye..

new sitting place: yellow platform (?) @ senior lawn

I think it's a pretty nice place :D

I will find time to play soon.

Need a diary for school pretty badly, will buy after school tomorrow.

& I will post some photos up tomorrow (:

OMG I AM SOOOOO TIRED. T_T

RAHHH!

DAISY HAS A LOT OF WORK!

Today JanJan drove me to tuition after school! :D

I saw VikVik at my tutorial, and a Cheltenam girl said she's met me before on NYE, but I can't recognise her. Apparantly because of a new haircut. She seemed pretty nice (:

I went to Maquarie alone after that, walked around a bit. Until my parents came, bought a couple of things, then went home.

Anyway, nothing to blog, everything's about school & study now. It's sad.

I'll leave you guys with a picture that a friend found on someone else's blog and sent it to me. O_O:

XD Don't know who's blog it was, so I can't credit. I didn't ask. Sorry! BYE!