hello peoples (:

the weekend is gone, ALREADY. and we're up to week 3A of school.. ALREADY. time flies, really.

well, didn't go to work yesterday; it was Roger and I's 1OO DAYS haha.. yupyups.. the morning was hectic.. quickly made vanilla cupcakes, then mixed the icing.. and then had my piano lesson, after piano lesson.. had to run back and put on the icing and draw on each cupcake and put into the pretty box I bought on friday, the box I spent a long time looking for in the city with Jenny but didn't find in the city =_=; (sounds kinda confusing, get it? get it? lol dw).. 6 cupcakes for Roger-- with stuff written on it-- caught the train cos my parents wouldn't drive me to the city, tried not to squish cupcakes..

We:
1. watched Xmen 3 (a little late eh) & You, me and Dupree (?) which was kinda random.. so quick 4 hrs gone..
2. went to World Square to eat fish & chips, which is weird to me.. in a middle of somewhere which is not really even a food court.. he ate most of it..
3. went to Kinokuniya to buy folders and clipboards
4. walked all the way to Market City.. look at clothing blahblah..
5. walk back to World Square to buy drinks from Miracle
6. sat on seats outside where he open my letter and dogtags and stuff (:
7. walked to Capitol to use the little Japanese vending machine thingiess.. *love
8. catch train, sleep on train (?) he gave me present *lovelovelove ^___^ and go hoooome

not suprised I felt soooo sleeping on the train, so much walking! and I think I got some of the points mixed up, I don't remember some of the orders.. ^___^; hehe cos we did a lot I think.. spent a lot of time reading all the writing on the paper wrapping =_= haha, the 'Little Miss Library Set' 12 cute little books.. so cute, thankyou!!

today, found out Cindy is sick and cannot tutor me today, so the whole day spent at home, eat fooood do some work.. and talk to Roger..

*sighs SCHOOL TOMORROW WTF ):<

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO XIONG FOR YESTERDAY!!

but how about tell me your birthday before you assume I know and get pissed at me for 'forgeting' d: JEEZ.. haha

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It's friday today; did you know? lol

yesterday after school went to play DDR with Annie as planned, I suck-- no endurance, stamina anymore ): DDR times seems so long ago.. when, I was always down.. times when I thought life was not worth living.. feel kinda stressed and not too happy atm, either.. I don't know what to do with my life, I don't know how to succeed.. ANYWAY *shakes head, yeah.. then meet Roger and eat icecream + fishballs @ y2k.. read newpaper and look at physics book.. do not think I will do physics.. x_x haha, then we go to walk around to Darling Harbour.. sit.. talk....... ^___^; and go home after..

today school was very normal, hand in assignment, etc etc.. ooh and didn't have the science topic test ^____^ hehe teacher said I could do it on monday. yay!

Shirt from Cow's Young Achievers group.. T-shirt *picture here soon OR MAYBE NOT d: I took some pictures of it but it's so wrinkly cos I tried it on o_o; need to iron it..

after school went to city with Sarah, Shelley, Vicky and Jenny.. was the odd one out with a navy blue jumper instead of bright green ): haha anyhows went to visit Roger @ Boost, where he gave me a drink which was TOO sweet-- Jenny drank it all.. haha, then Vicky and Shelley went to look for a belt, and Jenny and I spent a loonng time in the city looking for a BOX.. ZOMG, the simplest of things we could not find in the city.. they either have incredibly big ones are super small.. whatever, gave up after ages of walking around =_=;

then I went home!

tomorrow = no work!

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Real tears are not those that fall from the eyes and cover the face, but those that fall from the heart and cover the soul.

hello there ^___^

I'm currently at school in IPT lesson, I seriously don't care about IPT anymore, my thinking-- it's boring and there's absolutely NO way I am doing it next year so why bother? ^___^ is it the correct way of thinking? tell me yes (x doing theory work at the moment.. I hear just about 30 or so keyboards.. people are typing away the words that are coming out of the teacher's mouth, except me, I'm here, and a couple of others who are also doing nothing relatively productive in terms of IPT.. smart people ^___^

so far today I've had the Wespac Mathematics Competition, which was.. o.. k.. and 3rd period was the Chemistry Quiz.. it gave me second thoughts about doing Chemistry next year -_-; I must study hard!

this afternoon going to play DDR on the new machine with Annie (OMG I have not played for super super long, I can't play anymore *cries) before I meet Roger.. to do nothing.. before running home to do the Downing Centre law courts assignment (due tomorrow) and kinda study for the Chemistry topic test, which is also tomorrow.. I hope it's not similar the Chemistry Quiz ):

mentioning DDR, I remember the several months last year when Annie and I went to the city after school everyday and played DDR/shopped EVERY SINGLE day, unless we were injured in some way.. and we had our daily dose of Lipton milk tea and pepero to keep us going.. like 4 games one after the other ^___^ hehe, the happy times.. but now it's all different.. so much study, so much work..

*sighs..

BTW: I hate making subject choices.. the stupid 'Subject Selection night' on Tuesday didn't really help me at all ): and everyone is telling me different things.. omg #%@!* the stress! (but I liked the udon I had with Yvonne and Mel BEFORE the night d: ahh the food soooo yummy)

ANNNNNNNYWAAAYYYY
back to listening about what? internet browsers? o_o

i got soaked 2day!! walking in the rain 2 railway square with no umbrella to catch a bus 2 uni... needed to put some stuff in my locker... culdent resist n ended up in the computer labs with 2nd yr architecture strangers playing games -_=;;;! the whole day i was half dressed in my boost uniform (shorts, stained shoes, tight 'i love hotties' T)... i left the house ready to work 6 hrs 2day... but on the way 2 work my boss sms's n says... 'soz we dnt need u 2 work 2day', i think, prolli caus it was raining >_> FACT: rain ruins juice business... HENCE, less staff required... AS SUCH, i had lunch with Jack, hu was on his lunch break from Bing Lee... went to Sakae this jap restaurant on Liverpool Street, its like our lil groupie hangout, i think all the boys go there once a week minimum each... the waitresses will noe wat our 'usual' dishes soon i think la... hehe i got the lunch box... so filling >

y does this blog not go in chronological order huh? arh well i cbf rearranging it... neways after lunch was wen i walked in rain n went 2 uni... after uni went 2 this cake shop nxt 2 Y2K... n picked up my dad's b'day cake...

~ H A P P I B ' D A Y D A D !
(his *he's :b:b:b 50!! so omgoogling old!)

always get my b'day cakes from there, caus they do them well there ^^ o btw i ordered the cake at the beginning of the day b4 lunch with Jack... sigh this post is not in order at all its so wacked...

atleast the ending is easy... i went home on a train... woOt there somthing in the right order... yAy!

till nxt time... roger that! roger dodger! i hav a biscuit for roggie!... schmacho!
got nemore?.... tag it la :b la la la la... im not fob grRr =.= *falls over*

TODAY I didn't go to school (: had some table-tennis competition at Olympic Park.. ahah, woke up at 6:30am and proceeded to call Roger to wake him up for uni too, but he sounded awake already.. wells.. went to meet Lucy at Strathfield.. caught train to Lidcombe, then to Olympic Park.. omg felt like we were jigging, I swear, it's my conscience.. cos we were both in PE shirt/school jumper and JEANS.. lols, I duno..

When we got to Olympic Park.. we got lost, walked around heaps to find the stupid Indoor Sports Centre.. mm, when we got there, just took a table and started practising, were pretty shit, everyone around looked super pro ): and we haven't played for ages..

Played many many games in the intermediate division.. and met many new friends (: they're all sooo sweet, love to yous.. Winnie, Jun, Vivien-- can only remember 3 names? Great.. but they were the main ones.. Winnie and I became good friends, hehe main people we talked to were SGHS, BLAKEHURST, and PENSHURT peoples.. love you all must see you guys next year!! eh, we'll be in the senior division then -_-;

and....... JUST got into the semi-finals.. then.. finals.. guess what? me & Lucy came 1st!!!!!!!!!!! o_o OMG like WTF.. it was tight.. from semi-finals on.. with spins, slamming.. and to think we just went there to bludge.. aish and we had no 'tactics' cos we're noobies, only had one for doubles: hit back to the person who hit to you, cos then the other person can't reach it properly; lol, credits to SGHS yr11s (*:

medals and whatnot, took photos too with everyone (: but I haven't got them.. taken by schools' coaches and other people's phones..

ah wells bad day turned to a good day (: haha thanks Lucy + everone else I met for a really good day ^___^

Good..... evening ^__^

Well, long time no see; I haven't been on the internet for 5 days-- not much to some of you, but for me.. it's actually out of the ordinary.. lol some of you will know how I feel =_= I see that Roger's been keeping the blog alive for me................. I just wish that he'd sign off with his name so people don't think I'm a spastic like that.. hehe jokess

SOOO what have a been up to lately? o_o well, the long weekend.. friday (NSG's school development day^____^), I shopped with my mum for a couple of hours, clothes.. and RED converse lows (: omg and did I mention I HATE my feet size.. it's like right between 7 & 8 ladies.. flats and stuff are ok, 7 is fine for that.. but for converse o_o 7 fits, but with thicker socks, feels kinda tight, but with 8, it's waay too big.. it's like a bit less than 2cm too big.. I hate it how they don't make half sizes.. &**;#*&@! enough about my feet.. X:
and AFTER shopping, went home and changed.. my aunty drove me back to Parra, we walked around a bit.. then I met Roger @ 5ish and caught bus to David's place.. where we had hotpot and played stupid electric shocking (literally) games o_o; met a nice girl, Aya (she's japanese ^^) and spent most of the time with her I think (: HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY to that boy who had his birthday at David's house yesterday (dono how to spell his name) -_- the cake was too sweet.

Yesterday was a hectic day.. woke early for piano practise, then piano lesson, straight to work til 5.. then home to shower, and then left for Chatswood.. family friend's place, we had a massive dinner, then karaoke for like 5 hours.. o_o haha crazy people.. oh well, massive amounts of food love* I got kinda bored of it at 11 or so, so talked to peoples on the phone (: got home at 2am -_-;

Today, I got up late, ate breakfast.. and it was already 1:30pm............. yeah, talk to Jendo and Minna while doing chemistry homework, and then picked up Cindy and had tuition (: then dropped her home again, and had dinner.. etc etc

There's my long weekend for you (:

A filled week right ahead:
- table-tennis @ Olympic Park
- English group assignment due
- subject selection night
- Wespac maths competition
- Chemistry topic test
- Downing Centre assignment due

):

today is saturday no wait sunday yesterday was saturday the day b4 friday... okai now that i got my bearings... o.O sunday already huh... daym... such annoyance... means 2moro uni begins once more, means i must wake early, approx. 630am to make it 2 uni b4 9am b4 the first introductory lecture to semester 2... atleast they hav the courtesy to giv us 1 lecture we cn sleep in without missing nefing important... hu wants to noe how they r gona take over n occupy the nxt 13 weeks of my life neways pfft...

the pressure is 2 much... its like this...

i feel like i am sitting atop a chair atop a hill, playing musical chairs, my chair is the only 1 within the whole, wide, entire land... the music blairs from the heavens, beating down upon university professors, administrators and greed... they crawl slither and stumble towards me in all directions, slowly but surely up the lil mound i sit atop, wen they simitaneously reach me, they growl, sniff the air around them and pause... as if stopped by a spherical barrier surrounding me... it is then i realise the music still protrudes thru the greying skies... providing a safe haven temporarily... however... once white gentle pillows of fluff the clouds fade knowingly into menacing puffs of yellow smog... evidently muffling the music... they all lear at the chair i sit on top, seemingly glowing in their eyes... all the professor's and admin's ageing, wrinkled hands disperse greed's teasing smoke as they all lean in towards me, surrounding me... i shout... " RAPE !! RAPE !! som1 HELP !! ", but no1 hears me in this world... and in no time my crys r muffled, choked by the countless hands of those hu control wat i will b doing for the nxt 13 weeks and the wafting smoke of greed, that seems 2 plague every1's brain these days, urging me 2 live for money and die in unhappiness...

they steal the chair and all sit on top... i am left to stand to the side, at the bottom of the hill with tired legs and a tired mind...

jee metaphor of the century no doubt haha... som1 hand me a trophie

lol i got carried away... its late i need sleep...

c yoo's ppls

ps. i <3 my bb (random i noe ^^)

~! HAPPI 3 MONTHS GURL ^^ =]

Being with you makes me believe
The sun will always shine
And i'm glad that i'm with you girl,
And that you're always mine
I close my eyes and i know
My trust is on your side
Cuz being with you makes me believe
You're one of a kind
Beauty like yours is hard to find
Girl its so impossible
It's your eyes and your smile
That is so incredible
I believe you are so precious to this earth
You are the one, so beautiful
My asian girl : P

hehe... neways its been a while since ne of us posted... i was disappointed to c the yellow void of horror hasnt budged from it's fortressed (fortressed, apparently, according to "blogger" is not a word, but it works here well, as such should be a word :P) lair on the right of this page... however stay wary people !! it lays dormant, ready to POUCE n release its terrible wraith on this world !! do not let ur guard down, because ne day now, it will rear its fugli head... rarara

neways 2day going over 2 dwangs for hot pot with every1, meeting daisy at parra? stratt? at 3? 4? lol iono all depends on various factors ye... we'll prolli end up staying at dwangs quite late

this morning woke up n didnt wana move from my bed didnt wana do nefing ><... so i stayed in there for an hr looking at the ceiling... but after i got up i made choc-chip-cookies and noodles, then washed all the dishes i felt ALOT better... hehe the cookies expanded sooo much in the oven wen i took my rectangular baking tray out of the oven, i culd barely c the baking tray hehe... the left side became a grid of 6 square cookies :b o O o n i also tried making lil cookie ppl 2 LOL the "boy" cookie, his his head expanded in2 another cookie which squashed his head, so he had half a head afterwards... the "girl" cookie complete with a skirt n all, got really fat in the oven, looks so tubby now... not like Daisy at all ><

laters peeps !

first day back was okay ^___^ so bludgy leh, not too much work done. on the train this morning, there were not many school kids around.. only some private schools.. I felt kinda weird ):

first period was spent mostly with Jendo (: haha we were cooking the sodium hydroxide (err I can't remember ^^;) in ethanol.. and we weren't supposed to >_< and it started to pop.. so dangerous, cos that stuff can burn!! lols, then when we added the oil, it solidified straight away-- that wasn't supposed to happen either haha, the rest of class was like: WTH OURS IS STAYING LIQUID?! oh wells, Jendo and I made express soap ^___^ and the teacher showed the class LOL proud?

english was group work, kinda hilarious but didn't do much, just a lot of discussing-- attempting to make our assignment creative d: haha which is hard

maths was fun ^___^

after lunch, we made sport choices; we shall be doing BADMINTON for the rest of this term (: after sport choices was nothing, lols, just sat in the gym and talked-- for almost 2 hrs we did NO work ^___^ and for the last 20mins or so, I played a bit of table-tennis with a German exchange student and the male PD/H/PE teacher and some friends lols (:

after school I went straight home (proud?) and decided to play with a bit of glitter and whatnot.. I'm such a make-up noob, seriously, someone teach me how to use it properly.. even though I can't really wear any of it anyway cos of contacts ): rwar

results:

a long night on the phone with Roger, reminiscing............ talking, slept properly at around 4:30-5am (yeah I was kinda falling asleep on the phone hehe).. and woke up at past 12pm.. o_o; congratulations Daisy, waking up in the afternoon.. there's always a first time =_=;

soooo half my day is already gone.. lols, I walked around the house doing nothing, eating, for an hour or so.. then my parents came home. dropped me off at Cindy's place, and had a 2 and a half hour chemistry lesson ^___^ fun and confusing at the same time.. parents came back to pick me up and to fix their laptop/computer.. so while waiting, me and Cindy just talked, about school, uni and whatnot (:

omg then my day is gone.. last day of the holidays.. tomorrow is back to school. we have our staff development day (?) on friday instead of tomorrow like every other public school, hehe, which I think is good.. sighs* school, again.. going to be such a solid term, yearlies and whatnot. oh wells, have a good term everyone ^___^

*****
I have to let go of the past.. learn to trust once more..
I've realised I'm only hurting myself, hurting you, if I continue this much longer..
so I'll try my best to let go, and I won't hold back.. we'll look towards the future together, okay?
Roger, thankyou for everything, thankyou for standing by me
just want to tell you that you mean so much to me
it's always ever about you
(:

i like this layout, the font is elegant, the colour awesome, the set out simple, yet somtimes...

i question the chunk'a empty yellow space to the right of this page... almost making up half of the blog itself, i question its purpose in this world. Does it have an ulterior motive? A decisive, daunting plan to spread towards the left side? Mayb ever so gradually... evelope the whole blog in its royale yellow glory? Will i return next week 2 find this page awash in an out-of-control background colour? Untammed in its colourful thrashing fury?

questions like this keep me awake at night... unable to retreat 2 a rested sleeped... i roll & tumble as the virus like yellow waves & frolics in front of my closed eyes... teasing & willing me 2 join it in its demonic intentions 2 comtrol this blog space...

sigh! such is the world we live in


laters niggas!


=.=;;



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difficult to wake up for piano lesson at 8am, cold and I slept at 3am.. been like that for several days already.. omg must not phone until TOO late when school starts D:

tiring day at work, sold a few phones though (: mm the whole day Lillian wanted to swap my shoes with hers cos she liked my shoes =_=; so we did, until the sides of her shoes started cutting into my feet and it started hurting so much I started to limp T___T eh.. so ended up not swapping, and she went home crying (: lols jokes

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY DavidWANG!!

hope you have a great year being 18 (: hehe, was just talking to Chrissy, still remember this day 2 years ago.. haha and David was only turning 16, aww.. damn, time flies.. omg D: it's SCARY!! where will we all be in 2 years? 5 years? I wonder..

it's 9pm, must go to do some work..

"Physical preparation precedes sports mastery." says:
I can't see how you can care, but do nothing... o_O; if you cared, you'd _____.
"Physical preparation precedes sports mastery." says:
There's no point moping over something you can fix, Daisy...

aww Felix, you make me realise.......

THANKYOU SO MUCH!! ^____^

aza aza fighting!! :D

quick post ^____^ must keep this blog alive and well

today I went to Burwood to watch Piratess with Roger.. I haven't been to Burwood to watch a movie since year7 (soo long ago!). he gave me a bear holding some Haigh's chocolate <3 rahh love the bear it's super super soft, the chocolates.. my brother loved them d: thankyou!

afterwards, we went to the foodcourt to eat junk x_x and then went to orthodontist for my appointment, then up Burwood Rd to look at some creepy houses at Burwood.. cos.. cos I don't know =___=; lol Roger, being the architect, thought they looked nice lols. AND IT WAS F*CKING COLD TODAY.

hrmss.. I cut my fringe yesterday, so it's much less of an angle.. now more straight.. hehe, took some pictures using my Canon Powershot.. but but but it won't load onto this computer and I don't know why.. T___T damn camera..

PHONE NOW X:

toodles all

zomg blogger is MONGED.. I love my imageshack but but but I'm too lazy to upload them there.. -_-; whatever..

was just looking through some older dica pictures (around February/March this year?).. when the yellow hair was still neat and looked okays.. X: haha, oh wells..

me and my cousin Lillian @ my place after work.. in our gay Allphones uniform lol =_= look at the red sofa ^___^

me and my very very cute beloved Jendo

me and vivo --and I hope you break your neck (:

muackss*

hello peoples

I should be out shopping.. but something tomorrow got cancelled so I can put shopping off to tomorrow d: being the lazy person I am, that's what I'll do ^____^;

SOOO I'm at home again, 2nd day in a row-- it's actually kinda peaceful, I can only hear birds, myself typing and the occasional cough from my brother downstairs.. mm..

I got out for a bit in the late afternoon yesterday, though.. Roger came to Parramatta High, which is 2 streets and a park away from my place.. and we went to shoot hoops at the basketball courts until it got dark (: I'm super weak and unfit now.. I kinda miss those days in year8.. playing basketball with 'Shadowz' (LOL) every friday night.. it seemed like yesterday.. so vivid in my mind..

love* Saz, Alex, Beste, Sally, Jenny, Maria, Fiona

sighss* one last thing.. talking about 'missing those days'.. I wish I was back in primary school again, or even 1st day year 7.. there's so much I regret not doing.. some things that may affect everything in the future..

In the end, when you look back, you'll realise it will not be the things that you have done that you regret the most, it will be the things that you didn't do..

I've been up since 8:30am.. (: that's super good for in the middle of the holidays.. thanks to an early piano lesson.........

last night, I called Roger.. and after saying 'hello', the cordless phone ran out of battery.. haha so I went to my mobile to call him and tell him what happened, and saw that is had just run out of battery too e_e.. all good IF I had the charger in my room, but my mum had it in her room, borrowed it cos hers was at work -_-; rawr.. so zero communication, sorry luh..

today is workwork day.. I must get some work done before the next few days, especially tomorrow, cos I shall be out wasting money..

ohh and I'm also getting the lg U880 from Leslie's friend sometime this week.. another couple of hundreds gone X:

a few things I have to do this week.. hrms..
- shopping
- orthodontist appt
- visit the Downing Centre in city and watch some cases
- pick up u880
- attend 1st chem tutoring lesson w Cindy
- eat food w Xiong
- finish all my work!

workwork..

hello hello good evening!

I still can't believe I've been sick the whole holidays so far D: it's such a pain. on that friday night exactly one week ago, I came home from Hana's house after school.. had a shower, then started coughing! T____T I remember I was on the phone w Roger, and he said "you're probably getting sick.." how right he was.. I went through 2 days of headaches and fever then up until now it's been a bad bad cold -- both blocked nose&runny nose, super sore throat that causes me to wake up several times in the cold cold night and etc

and yesterday while shopping w Lillian and today while working 9-5:30 w Philip? the worst ______ pain EVER.. I was limping everywhere and tears were coming out of my eyes.. RWAR I want to be a boy T____T

so painful so far..

I'm going to make good use out of the 2nd week of holidays :D both fun and work-wise too! hopefully..

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hello!! ^_____^

I've decided to cut off that period of blogging (5th of October 2005 - 4th of July 2006).. and stuff it all into a different place.. don't ask why..

it's here for your reference: doraemonk.blogspot.com

the name of the place is cute huh (: Annie thought of it long ago, for another blog on my account, I didn't use it. I just did a lot of swapping of names and layouts just a few minutes ago.. a little confusing for me, and for you to read about, so if you use blogger and understand how I swapped it (: good. if not, nvm (omg I'm rambling already T_____T)

ANYWAY I'll continue blogging here at nxt2me.blogspot.com

(: bye for now